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I think I have a problem…

Alright not to add too much information but I think my level of being stubborn has increase through out the years with out me noticing it and last night it came out and I got scared. When a person is willing to admit and actually want to fix things one should not get stubborn and rude, but yet I did. Maybe its my lack of expression but I need to stop making excuses and just accept the fact that I need to stop dwelling on certain things and move the f*** on already. I’m wasting time, its not always going to be perfect as I wish it would be but it could be close to it if I work on this side of me.

Anyways moving on to the positive, you know how sometimes you secretly wish your significant other did something out of the blue without you telling them too? Well last night as I was leaving The Gatos house that exact thing happened. I usually write these extensive deep a** texts as I’m leaving his house because those goodbyes/see ya later suck major huevos. But the point is, soon as I sent mine I got a one back from him, cutest thing ever. This man I’m with really just wants to make me happy and I am. I feel like a little girl around him giggling and not knowing how to act, but its an amazing feeling. No I have not turned into one of those girls who is just going to just forget about everyone else, but if feels right and you want to be around someone a lot, wouldn’t you do the same? I’m usually the type to get bored and move on, and yet I found someone I can’t just run away and leave things without fixing them. I found someone who gives me butterflies and gets me antsy and most of loves me for who I am. …

I just need to write…

So its been a while since I have been on here. I was just reblogging pictures and not really writting as I had set out to. Anyways seems like my life has changed a whole lot in the last couple of months. Its a new year and I don’t necessarily think as I used to. No fronting, I was becoming an avid member of the group of people who lets just say go out too much for their own good. I met so many people and had a blast, but recently I have found that I don’t crave it like before, better yet its the last thing on my mind. In all honesty it is because I’m in love, I rather spend my majority of my time with The Gato. I know this has affected many people who have grown used to the single me who was always available and “down for whatever”. I’ve been such a great friend for so long that now I really need to focus on my relationship and the person I love.

This has been a big surprise to me all together, who would’ve thought that night I met him at palare, we’d be at this point now. I mean I always felt extremely comfortable with the guy since the day I met him, and the signs should’ve made it even more obvious but I couldn’t have it any other way. I feel as if my wait, my picky behavior and the need not to settle brought me to where I am today.

I cannot predict the future especially since all of this is recent, but I feel our love growing stronger. I’m taking this step by step and going with the flow, because I believe in this so much ahhh I’m going cray. Anyways recap of today:

I worked on my lack to open up to just anyone. The Gatos sister is not just anyone, its his family and I respect and value the bond they hold. So going to dinner and stepping out of my comfort zone was a great step to take. I hope this just eases things and that she got to know me a bit better.